How expanding your visibility actually works

SO I have been expanding my visibility for as LONG as I can remember.

When this journey first started out though— intentionally speaking, I was post near death experience, post me leaving the church, and I was feeling the call to get back online and share my thoughts with the world.

I WILL NEVER FORGET the way that it actually felt like literal DEATH and so much unsafety- to post my real thoughts about leaving the church, that I believed we are all God + so many more unhinged experiences, especially because in the culture that I came from with my past religion- it was not considered RUDE to ask someone what they believed or even argue it. You are literally taught from a young age that to be a good Christian you MUST be able to argue for what you believe (this is called apologetics) and that your entire job as a good christian is to convince people of what you believe is the right way to believe which first starts by asking them really personal questions about what and why they believe the way that they do (this is called evangelism).

My first major step in visibility was actually a step in my sovereignty.

Another thing about being a good girl, especially a good little christian girl.. was making sure that everyone was included, that you are FOR everyone and this couldnt be more opposite than the truth of how my energy actually works in the world.

I am autistic. I cant NOT tell the truth.

I have resting bitch face (although someone told me recently that her husband pointed out that I am always smiling and I was shocked bc I feel like unless I tell myself to smile, I dont. haha)

I am a rare breed- and the older I get, the less fucks I give, the more I find my unique voice in the world AND the more I realize that the most ICONIC version of me- is actually the version that holds two of the most seemingly polarizing voices.